As I’ve said before I really don’t know what this journey in the Hampton Roads area is going to in tale. Moving here I feel like I’ve had to be open to the possibility of memories coming back and different time frames in different locations I see.
A perfect example is what happened this morning. I met a friend for coffee and then I decided that I was just going to drive down the oceanfront in Norfolk. Just heck out the beach and whatever. I decided to just continue driving down Ocean view and all of a sudden I see a sign that says “welcome to Fort story” and it kind of took me back for a minute I wasn’t expecting it but I realize that it was basically a sign for Little Creek Naval base and Fort story since it is a joint base sign but it still kind of took me back. So as I saw the sign it caused me to remember the significance of what Fort story means.
After BG got his commission in the army his first duty station was going to be Fort Story Virginia. This army base whole significance to me because it is the location of possibility. Because me and BG got divorced I never got to move to Fort story.
So seeing that sign this morning starts up the would’ve could’ve should’ve of my future. I could really allow myself to get caught up in that. I feel like maybe I missed something by not staying married to BG and not being able to go to Fort story in continuing my relationship with BG. I also mourn the loss of what could’ve been. Because now BG is a retired officer in the military living a very comfortable life. And I can find myself fantasizing that I too could have a comfortable life.
I wouldn’t have to struggle the way I have. And it is so easy to get caught up into that fantasy world. But the truth is that that wasn’t my life and that is not my life. Sure I’d had struggles but I feel like if I would’ve still been married to BG I probably would not have gone through the healing process that I have had to go through. I wouldn’t have the two amazing daughters that I have now.
So I have come to the conclusion the Ft Story has a significant part of my life but it does not have a significant part of my story because GOD had a different plan for me.
To GOD Be The GLORY. Take Care. Much Love.
