A few Saturdays ago I made the decision to drive to Hampton to do some reminiscing and healing. I knew it would be hard but I felt like I was up to the challenge.
I got up that morning and prepared to make the drive and to be open to whatever would happen that day. But as I was getting ready I started contemplating and thinking about taking my dog.
It’s funny he has anxiety but he is also able to help me with my anxiety. He has always been able to comfort me when I have anxiety or panic. I started thinking about taking him. But I realized that I was uncertain how long I was going to be gone and I did not want him to be stuck in the car for an unknown amount of time. I decided not to take him with me.
After making that decision that I was doing this alone. No one would be with me. I started crying and really feeling alone. But then I realized that this is what I needed. I needed to have an unlimited amount of time to just stay in one place for however long or to visit as many places as I wanted without having to be mindful of time. I needed to just take care of myself.
I realized that I had to do this alone. No plus one. It was me and GOD. And that is all I needed.
To GOD Be The GLORY. Take Care. Much Love
