Being that I am an Air Force BRAT and an Army Veteran establishing friendships have always been a hard task for me. I guard my heart afraid of being hurt and even unsure of how long we will be together because life will divide us for whatever reason. Over the years I have been able to conquer this task and have a small squad of friends.
So just imagine how difficult it is for me to describe someone as my best friend. To me a best friend is someone that I can call at 2am with no worry of the other person being upset. Someone that is there with me through the good and bad in my life.
I can’t say that I have a true best friend but I do have amazing women that have been there for and with me through trials, tribulations, and triumphs. I am going to kinda break my own rule. (disclosing real names on my blog) I am not going to reveal the actual names but just the initials.
Childhood Bestie-CP (we both have had traumatic backgrounds and similar life journeys)
Battle Buddie Besti-LB (she is my life twin also)
Mommie Best- TM we went through motherhood for the first time together
Spiritual Mom Bestie-PG She has been through the majority of my journey with me
Spiritual Besties 4 Pak-MG/MP/LH/JI These 4 awesome women have helped me on my spiritual journey and have been awesome friends
Cheerleader Bestie-DB She has been a amazing woman to support in my speaking circut
Advocate Bestie-AB She started out as my supervisor and has ended up being an amazing friend
In thinking about this post I have realized that there might be a reason that I don’t have a true best friend. I realize that I have subconsciously had a best friend. MY THERAPIST. They are the one person that probably knows every detail of my life in one capacity or another
I think I have liked the perk of confiding into a person and know that they will not tell anyone because they can’t Like I said in the intro of this post it is hard for me to trust people so what better person to consider a true bestie than someone that can’t tell anyone.
I came to that realization in therapy with my Sacred Swan. As comfortable as I have been having my therapist as my best friend I know that I have to step out of my comfort zone and find my true best friend.
As I wrote the end of the previous paragraph when I think of my true best friend that would be my husband. (my eyes are sweating writing this) I truly believe to be husband and wife you need to be best friends. You need to feel comfortable just hanging out belching and laughing. Also just being you. I can’t wait until I find my true best friend
To GOD Be The Glory. Take Care. Much Love
This post went a different way than I imagined. But that is the good thing of being authentic that it is real and it may not go as planned.
