Over Two month ago today: 2/4/2022 1236pm EST, my life changed forever. I got the phone call that my daddy passed away. My dad was 79 years old. I understood that he was closer to death as each day passed. I just did not realize that it was very close.
I have shared before on my blog that I have a really hard relationship with my dad. It was not an easy process to Love him. I had to work on it with 100% intention. I made every effort I could to keep in contact with him.
He was a difficult person to easily love. No matter what. He was my daddy and I loved him. GOD gave him to me because he knew that I would rise from the ashes of my broken foundation and I would love my daddy no matter what.
His death has released the weight of the expectation I had put on myself to give our relationship everything I had. The weigh that I had put on myself. That I had to work on that relationship as much as I could.
There is still alot of work. There are so many unfinished conversations I was hoping to have with him. I may not be able to have a verbal conversation with him. But I can write letters and even shared this grieving and healing process here on this platform.
This may be the end of his life here on earth. But it is the beginning of my ability to fully work on me and being happy with who I am.
To GOD Be The GLORY. Take Care Much Love
