I always had this vision of being pregnant and my significant other being totally supportive. Helping me physically, emotionally, & mentally. Anything I needed he would be there for me. Not much of this would become a reality for me. Because Dennis felt like I was trapping him and he was wrestling with his own issues he was not very supportive.
I went to 90% of my doctor’s appointments by myself. He did go to my ultrasound with me more out of pressure than out of willingness. Granted when he saw the baby’s heart beat he got excited. It is just so hard to hold onto that one moment when all the other 99 negative moments weigh down my memory bank.
I had a few friends who were pregnant during the time that I was pregnant. Seeing their husbands cooking dinner, carrying heavy stuff, pampering them and just showing unconditional love was a struggle for me.
I vividly remember being about 8 months pregnant and asking Dennis to bring in a case of water. He refused to do. He told me that I was an able body and I could do it. And so I did. It was just so hard having minimal support from him
When I was 39 weeks pregnant I went to my appointment on a Friday and found out that I had high blood pressure. So the doctor put me on bed rest for the weekend. And I would have an appointment on Monday to see how I was doing. I get home and told Dennis. He was irate and livid. His mom was arriving from California on Sunday and the house was a mess. “The house needed to get done,” he said. So I basically broke my bed rest so that he would stop yelling and screaming at me. I understand his mom was coming in. He was an able body and he could have done it. Instead, I did it and he sat around and watched me do it. I ha
I have to just make an extra effort to think about my pregnancy and have great memories. I would have hoped that Dennis would be included in those memories but it is what it is and he is not in many of those memories. All that matters is he did not steal my joy of being pregnant, bonding with my baby and making memories with my daughter. Take Care Much Love
