When I was studying the bible to get baptized I was learning about forgiveness. I really feel GOD spoke to me about how I ended my relationship with BG. I know I hurt him by getting a divorce from him while he was at a military school. I also know I hurt him by cheating on him with Dennis. At the time I never admitted to it. Iknow I was ashamed of my behavior.
So I reached out to BG in 2000 and asked for forgiveness. I never heard from him so I figured he was deeply hurt so I just prayed to GOD that one day I would have the opportunity to ask for forgiveness.
Fast-Forward to 2006. I was divorced, living in a homeless shelter and being told by a doctor that I should have a surgery. At that time I had never had a surgery so I wanted to have my life in order beforehand. So I again decided to reach out to Donald. This time I wrote him a letter stating I needed to talk to him. I enclosed a self-addressed envelope and wrote “I understand if you don’t want anything to do with me. If that is the case please tear up the letter put it in the envelope and mail it back to me and I will not attempt to contact you again” I mailed it out on Halloween 2006. I prayed for GOD to make it obvious if BG would contact me.
My surgery ended up getting canceled and I continued to live my life. On Valentines Day 2007 I open up my email account to find an email from BG and it simply said “What do you need to talk about” I was so excited to get that email from him. I sent him a response and for the first time in 12 years, I admitted to BG that I cheated on him and I asked for his forgiveness. I waited in anticipation for a response. It popped up on my screen and it said ‘I FORGIVE YOU”
I was so humbled to find out that the man that I deliberately cheated on to hurt forgave me. I felt 10 pounds lighter. For the next 2 weeks, we corresponded via email. Just basically catching up on where our lives were. I mentioned to him that I ended up marrying Dennis, having 2 kids, being in a domestic violent relationship, divorcing him, being in a homeless shelter and finally getting my own apartment. I prepared myself that he might say that I deserved some or even all of those things to happen because what I did to him. Instead, he told me he was sorry that I went through all that. And he wished me well.
That was 10 years ago. Our emails are a little more sparse now. But I am so happy and at peace to know that someone that I hurt so bad has forgiven me. And I have been able to also forgive myself for the things that I have done. Take Care. Much Love.
