When something unexpected happens in our life it is so easy to shout, “WHY ME???” We question what we did to deserve such a bad outcome or situation. It is so easy to fall into this trap. But what we need to strive to change is to ponder “Why not” It is easy to want an easy life without bumps and detours. But we are no better than any other person to have to suffer in our lives.
It’s funny I did a speech a few months ago and after I had shared my life story a person in the audience asked me if I felt like I was cursed. It kind of caught me off guard hearing someone else asking this question since I had pondered it to myself hundreds of times. I thought about it for a moment and then I shared with the lady that I don’t feel like I am cursed. Sure, I have had a lot of negative things in my life but I have also had many positives. I believe GOD gave me the life I have because he knew I was strong enough to endure it and heal from it. Don’t get me wrong when it was happening and the 20 years I did not deal with it I may not have completely felt like that. But now I see how all my broken pieces have come together and given me peace.
If GOD would have spoken to me 20 something years ago and plotted out what I would endure and then tell me that not only would I endure these things, I would heal from them and I would share my story with others I would have raised my hand in the air and yelled “Check Please” Because I would not have believed that I would be strong enough to do that. But because I just had to endure it, heal from it, and talk about it in my timing I can now look back in awe of how far I have come. It is totally GOD.
I think it is a human reaction to want to ponder and wonder what the purpose for our suffering is. As I get old I realize that everything we go through is a life lesson. It can teach us that we are stronger than we thought we are, it can make us stronger and it can even show us what we need to work on. If we never had suffering and growth we would just stay in the same place for our whole life. I know for me I want to live my life to the fullest and can’t do that stuck in one spot. Take Care Much Love.