Last summer Lilie was in basic training. She was having a difficult time passing her PT test. I knew I needed to give it to GOD. I decided to be radical. I fasted from food. I prayed. I had others pray for her. The day she was set to take her PT test I fasted the whole day and prayed with some sisters.
I found out within days she did not pass her PT test. I found myself questioning God about Lilie passing her PT test and graduating. I felt like I did everything “right ”
- I fasted.
- I prayed
- I had others pray
- I had other people to pray with me.
I started to wrestle with GOD”S plan. Was that not enough? Had I not done enough for Lilie to pass her PT test.
At that moment I realize this was not between me and GOD. This was between Lilie and GOD. She needed to pray and partition to GOD. What I could do was give it to GOD and truly believe that he was in control. I had to LET GO AND LET GOD.
I also realized that my approach was more conditional. “GOD if I fast & pray please let Lilie pass” The approach I needed to have was “GOD I believe you are in control. I need to let go of this and have faith that you have an amazing plan and I need to allow it to unfold”
The next day as soon as I prayed and gave it to GOD Lilie called and told me she passed her PT test and would be graduating.
I realized through this that doubting GOD is basically being faithless and fearful. GOD has a plan for us. We need to be faithful and patient. Teach me to wait, GOD
To GOD Be The GLORY
