Avoidance

I had the intention to start a new blog specifically for the Radical Change Challenge. But I decided to just use this blog for this challenge because this challenge is a part of going from VIctim To Victorious.

This post was initially posted on June 5, 2018

It is crazy going through things in life things in your character is revealed.

For me, this Radical Year Challenge has revealed a theme for me: AVOIDANCE

I have avoided things in my life because I did not want to face the possible outcome:

-My washer began making a metal grinding noise over 1 year ago and I have avoided getting it looked at because I was afraid of what the cost would be. I finally got it looked at because I could not avoid it any longer. The cost is out of my budget. I could have found that out a year ago instead of waiting until now to realize I can’t afford it and will have to be left it here.
-I have had every intention to start trying to rehome the cats since February. But I have avoided it because I knew it would be an emotional process of trying to find a good home for them. So instead I avoided it until I am now down to crunch time and am in a panic to try to re-home them quickly
-I also had an intention to begin purging/packing/getting rid of stuff at the beginning of the year so I would not feel so rushed to get it done. Again I avoided the process because I knew I wanted to minimalize what I take with me so that would mean getting rid of a lot of stuff that may have an emotional connection. So now I have 23 days to get rid of a lot of garbage.
-I avoided telling my manager and co-workers because I really did not want to answer the same questions over and over again. Or even have to justify my decision with people that I am not personally connected to.
GOD really knows how to reveal things in HUGE ways. Nothing like working on your character while moving. YEAH ME!!!!