I had the intention to start a new blog specifically for the Radical Change Challenge. But I decided to just use this blog for this challenge because this challenge is a part of going from VIctim To Victorious.
This post was initially posted on July 4, 2018
Today is the Fourth of July. It is a holiday. Hopefully a day of rest and relaxation. The day was definitely laid back. I was glad. My host family’s Family Group had a BBQ in the early afternoon and my Family Group had a BBQ in the early evening. You know what that means
Yep, I double dipped. Not necessarily to get more food. It was more so that I could have more opportunities to meet people and hang out.
I definitely got some fellowship today. It was nice to meet people that I had not met yet and even get to know people a little more than I have previously met. I was also vulnerable and talked to someone that I was told had mechanical skills about the possibility to look at my car about an issue I am having. It was a good interaction. The brother said he could look at my care on Sunday after church.
Since my family group was meeting early in the evening that meant I would be leaving after dark. I did not think much about it. Until I actually left. I felt myself having some anxiety. Tried to ignore it. But as I headed home the anxiety grew. The reason why it was growing is that there were people in the neighborhoods I was passing letting off fireworks. I began worrying that the fireworks might hit my car or something.
I had to make a very big effort to calm myself down and reassure myself that I was okay. Once I got home I realized that part of my fear comes from the fact that I have not gone very far from my comfort zone on Fourth of July in a very long time. So to be in a different city and to be miles away from my temporary home had caused me to have anxiety.
In that same moment, I realized that I had been successful in stepping outside my comfort zone. And today was definitely a day of indepence
To GOD Be The GLORY
Take Care Much Love
