One of the 5Ks that I did was for Military Sexual Trauma Awareness. There was a specific week that you were suppose to do the 3.14 miles and send in your time.
So I did the race during that time frame and then Wright Patt AFB gave out Tshirts. One of my awesome Glitter Butterflies went to pick it up for me and mail it to me. I did not realize that the tshirts had to be picked up in person. So I am grateful that my dear friend picked it up and mailed it to me .
It is a pretty nice shirt. Hopefully I can post it. Well a few weeks after the race I had decided I was going to go to Langley to do some healing. I thought it would be cool to actually run a 5K on a military installation. So that is what I planned to do.
I really made a moment of awareness to make sure I was strong enough to do this. To run for MST on an Air Force Base. And I felt like I could do it. So I made plans to go to church on the Pennisula and then go to Langley.
I was feeling good. I parked my car in a parking lot, got my running music going and started running. As I was running I was reflecting on my childhood and the verbal, emotional and mental pain I endured from my dad.
Those thoughts were my fuel to continue running. I was feeling good. GOD had another plan. As I was running one of my favorite inspirational songs came on. “This Is Me” from The Greatest Showman.
When the following lyrics came on I lost it.
When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown ’em out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me
Look out ’cause here I come
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me
I’m gonna send a flood
Gonna drown ’em out
Oh
This is me
For the first time I felt like I was singing these words to my dad. He emotionally cut me for many years. But I am not longer going to allow him to knock me down.
I was balling as I was running. More like calling the whales. But I kept running and I just let all that ugly garbage out. It was good to get all that out
GOD IS AWESOME. I thought I was running for MST. Instead I was running towards healing. To GOD Be The GLORY. Take Care. Much Love
