Week 12
In this session I read my imaginal for the “What Happens Next” & “The Day After” As usual my Sacred Swan asked some thought provoking question. I finished reading “The Next Day” and she asked me about holding the underwear and how I described the evidence that they held.
She asked some great question:
Did you think about taking them to the police station or go to the hospital?
I thought about that for a moment and I explained to her that I did think about going to the police station and or the hospital. I shared with her my fears and resistance:
- I had had a few one-night stands while in Korea and I knew that it would be like I was on trial. The would have those guys I had been with testify about “my history”
- I was leaving Camp Humphreys in less than 2 months. If I pressed charges I would be locked down to Camp Humphreys and would not be able to go home until after the trial.
- Most important-There would be 12 of them and 1 of me. I am sure they would collaborate a story that they would all follow. And I am sure it would have statements of how I was promiscuous and flirtation. Lap dancing and probably grinding with the guys (None of that is true).
- I did not want to relieve the trauma. I wanted to leave it behind me. I was hoping to leave it in Korea.
I know I have said it over and over again. But I LOVE MY SACRED SWAN. She ask such amazing thought provoking question.
To GOD Be The GLORY. Take Care. Much Love
